And now it is August..........

I have not been here in forever.. so much has happened in the past couple months and I cant remember it all...

work fiasco... UGH... not enough hours and now I feel like I am bustin my ass and not getting any things out of it... tired tired tored.. to many damn borderlines... August always sets me in a funk... not sure when the exact SR dates are... does dh remember??? am sure he does but it still makes me sad...

looking at dates for sunday school.. lots of dates surrounding Emma's 8th birthday... others dont know... I am scheduled to teach.. dont really want to.. thinking I will and then maybe have flowers in church for her.. or her balloons then take the kids to the cemetary to release them after church??? will have to talk to Todd about this...

doing ok but still feeling like I yell at the kids to much.. need to go for a walk.. feel fat.. UGH!!!! hate it really... should go now.. but is to hot... UGH UGH UGH!!!!

miss my old friends.. feeling the need to reconnect... Julia rocks.. she is so understanding and I wilsh she lived closer so we could spend more time together.. things move so fast in our world that often I feel like I am missing out on in important things...

I need to blog more often.. journal more often.. holy smokes it has been 2 plus months since I have been here.. what is that all about... weird....

kids start school soon... that even scares me and makes me sad really... they are growing up so fast.... and sometimes I wonder at them.. look at them and htink.. omg are the3y realy mine.. whose kids are they.. these are ours????

Life is about change but I hate it really I want thiungs to slow down some.. please cant it just go slower.... tomorrow is my yearly exam... gyno and mammo.. yippee....

Elliott Brown died this week at church.. makes me sad.. I never would have guessed he is 83... he looked so wonderful.. I gave Jean a hug at the visitation and told her M and G wanted me to give her one.. and that M wanted to draw Elliott a picture... she said to let him do it and they would put it on the fridge at home.. she said Elliott thought a lot of m and g... *sigh* sometimes.. life is to damn short....

and I do hate change....