It feels longer since I have been here....

and the house stuff is making me crazy.. why is it that the real estate agents can push to get things done.. they take their own damn sweet time when you want something from them.. not our agent by any means.. well now anyhow.. *L* but the listing agent.. let's get this on the road already.. another week til we have a signed agreement??? WTF!!!1 thank god our banker is willing to go a head with stuff without the signed offer...

And thank God for the moms and dad's to pitch in to help us out.. I dont know what we would do.. we would make it work but OMG!!!! to much freaking stress for me.. I have not resotred to eating but suuuuuuuure have thought about smoking...

and I feel fat today... I know that really I am not.. but I dont like that my pants ... sz 12's this pair are tight.. i want all my size 12s to fit.. oh such a thing to complain about huh>>. dont need perfection but I feel I do... maybe I need to watch my CORE WW closer.... drink more water????


the lifting is going well and I dig it... but I just wish my stomach would go down!!!!

Called Shelly the other day to get some support.. and she turned our convo into somethinga bout her.. ummm ok I called and said.. I need you to talk me through this.. and before I knew it we were talking about her.. sometimes I get irritated with my friends b/c I often feel like I have to call them to get some kind of contact or support.. llike mandy.. I dont hear from her at all unles I email her or call her.. WTF huh??? and the same thing at times with Shelly.. then of course I get to listen to Sarah complain.. and whine about htings... OMG.. GROw up!!!! GRRRRRR ok i is not that bad.. but still irritating..

best go..